Monday, May 05, 2008

Cheers for Change

Spring really is here. I have always thought that the Spring season represented Change. Good Change because of all the renewal that accompanies the Changes. For instance, I love that all that has died over the winter season comes back to life. The blooming process is so beautiful to watch. Graduations and weddings are very prominent in the Spring to Summer time frame. All the opportunity, hopes, success, and future promises seem so much more real in the Spring. It seems everyone is renewed and ready for change when Spring comes poking around as if coming out from hibernation and pondering all the great qualities they possess.

Change is so wonderful and needed throughout the process of one's life in order to continue growing, in order to continue learning, and in order to continue getting to know oneself. I have always believed in asking myself, "Where Do I Go From Here?" "Is this where I want to be?" "Is this where I pictured myself being at this point in my life?"

I was never one of those people that "knew what they wanted to be when they grew up" the career sense. For a long time I thought I was unlucky due to my "I feel lost and career un-oriented" way of thinking. What I did know was that I wanted to complete college in something, I wanted to have the piece of paper to prove it, and I wanted to do something with my life that made me happy and provided constant learning. Hmmm, pretty simple right? It can be if you try to keep asking yourself, "Where Do I Go From Here?" "Is this where I want to be?" "Is this where I pictured myself being at this point in my life?"

I am very fearful of change, but I whole-heartedly embrace it. I make my decisions and I stand by them. If I am wrong, I say I am wrong...and then I move on. I worry, constantly. I think the constant worry I carry with me causes me to strive for betterment; betterment in my words, betterment in my actions, betterment in my thoughts, and betterment in my decisions. I know I am not perfect and I do not ever expect that out of anyone else.

I will soon be fearfully embracing a new career path. I am excited about the Changes, the opportunities it will offer in the future, and the challenges it will provide to my mind and my capabilities.

A little cousin of mine recently had her high school graduation party and she will soon be turning that tassel from one side of the cap to the other. I am excited for all the Changes, hopes, success, and future promises that will be offered to her.

My monkey of a significant other's little brother is getting married next week. I am so excited for his and his soon to be wife's wonderful changes they are embracing, their hopes, success, and future promises they will be making for and with one another.

I learned to pot lettuce and Thyme yesterday. I am so excited for my pursuit in keeping an herb garden alive.

So, Where do you go from here? Are you where you want to be? Are you where you pictured yourself at this point in your life? Make some changes and do some little or as huge as it may be. Learn how to pot a plant, or go back to school, or ask that person you love spending your life with to marry you...hmmmm.

Embrace good change, however fearful it may be.

...Or tell me how full of it I am and to quit taking my happy pills because I am being obscenely and grotesquely cheery today.


BlondeLittleShit said...

You're allowed to be grotesquely happy and cheery! Not only because of all your wonderful life changes, but because it's Cinco De Mayo, and there's plenty of Mexican to enjoy!

Deb said...

it is cinco de mayo! did you take the day off to celebrate your heritage??? :)

BlondeLittleShit said...

haha, sadly no. No one at work believes I'm really Mexican, so they would think I was just skipping work!

jmcqueen82 said...

A. I don't believe Bridget is really Mexican.... your too blond and perky to be Mexican Bridge! hehe

B. I also think it is beautiful and wonderful that you are in such a happy place. When you find that network of support, you fear change a lot less.

C. I can actually say, I am NO WHERE NEAR where I thought I would be when I thought about what I wanted to be when I grew up... but I am SO VERY HAPPY where I AM! I have NEVER felt that way before, and I am sooooo grateful!

D. No, I am not sharing Debbie's happy pills, though I might if she offered. hehe

C said...

Wow! What a super post, Deb! Very thought provoking :)

A. Is Bridget really Mexican? Or are you girls totally pulling my leg? ;) I'd totally believe whatever you tell me!!! My friends and family think it's funny how I can be so "book smart" but a bit ditsy at the same time.

B & C. Being in a wonderful place in your life is awesome :) I feel like I'm in that place too (with the exception of my stupid bloody eye that I was telling you about in my last post). I never expected to be where I am now, and it's nothing like I'd ever imagined my life would be...but in some odd way, it all makes sense :) Lovin' every minute of my new life on a crazy small island...and being married to a farmer. Crazy! LOL! Everything has changed for me...but I've embraced it. I used to be afraid of change and in some ways I still am. For the most part, I've learned to jump into the water without even a second thought :)

D. Happy pills ;) BTW, I was wondering if you got my e-mail, Deb? I e-mailed you two nights ago. I want to mail you your prize!!!! :)

It seems we're having technical issues with the e-mail though! LOL! I haven't received your messages that you've sent me and it does not seem that you've received mine either. Grrrr. I thought technology was supposed to make our lives easier!!

Deb said...

hahahaha! Bridget really is totally mexican! It's funny because she doesn't look Mexican at all and she is; and everyone thinks I am Mexican and I am absolutely not!

I love hearing about your life on the "Island." Life is strange they way it twists and turns. Everything happens for a reason!

Tina Dremel said...

I am excited to see your embracing a career change!! I know it was something we had talked about you wanting for awhile now!! Good for you. :)